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i feel awful

Post by noise_Tests » Sun Dec 01, 2019 10:54 am

my imaginary bunny boiling gf dumped me, and no-one even believes she exists, so i have no-one to turn to etc. :D i just feel awful, sick on the inside.
When it breaks, that's it – over; it's meaningless.
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Re: i feel awful

Post by jliat » Sun Dec 01, 2019 11:03 am

noise_Tests wrote:
Sun Dec 01, 2019 10:54 am
my imaginary bunny boiling gf dumped me, and no-one even believes she exists, so i have no-one to turn to etc. :D i just feel awful, sick on the inside.
You do seem to be having a particularly bad day.
If as you say your gf is imaginary, i'm sure that in some way she exists. Though your experiences with this 'person' don't seem to be particularly good in a positive way?
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Re: i feel awful

Post by noise_Tests » Sun Dec 01, 2019 11:04 am

jliat wrote:
Sun Dec 01, 2019 11:03 am
noise_Tests wrote:
Sun Dec 01, 2019 10:54 am
my imaginary bunny boiling gf dumped me, and no-one even believes she exists, so i have no-one to turn to etc. :D i just feel awful, sick on the inside.
You do seem to be having a particularly bad day.
If as you say your gf is imaginary, i'm sure that in some way she exists. Though your experiences with this 'person' don't seem to be particularly good in a positive way?
yes there is that -- so it's a good thing really... i can't shake this feeling that i'm depressed -- now -- though and so won't make the best of my freedom haha
When it breaks, that's it – over; it's meaningless.
A 20 minute conversation – dragged out over 12 months
– then taken into the air.

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Re: i feel awful

Post by noise_Tests » Sun Dec 01, 2019 11:06 am

it has -- in general -- been a bad day.

ah well.
When it breaks, that's it – over; it's meaningless.
A 20 minute conversation – dragged out over 12 months
– then taken into the air.

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Re: i feel awful

Post by jliat » Sun Dec 01, 2019 11:07 am

noise_Tests wrote:
Sun Dec 01, 2019 11:04 am
jliat wrote:
Sun Dec 01, 2019 11:03 am
noise_Tests wrote:
Sun Dec 01, 2019 10:54 am
my imaginary bunny boiling gf dumped me, and no-one even believes she exists, so i have no-one to turn to etc. :D i just feel awful, sick on the inside.
You do seem to be having a particularly bad day.
If as you say your gf is imaginary, i'm sure that in some way she exists. Though your experiences with this 'person' don't seem to be particularly good in a positive way?
yes there is that -- so it's a good thing really... i can't shake this feeling that i'm depressed -- now -- though and so won't make the best of my freedom haha
Not sure of what you mean by 'good' thing or 'freedom'? Do you mean you're stopping posting to the bot?
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Re: i feel awful

Post by jliat » Sun Dec 01, 2019 11:09 am

noise_Tests wrote:
Sun Dec 01, 2019 11:06 am
it has -- in general -- been a bad day.

ah well.
I guess being on ones own with little to do can make one very sensitive. Not that this in itself is a bad thing,
but generally the world also isn't as 'positive' as it once was...
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Re: i feel awful

Post by noise_Tests » Sun Dec 01, 2019 11:10 am

jliat wrote:
Sun Dec 01, 2019 11:07 am
noise_Tests wrote:
Sun Dec 01, 2019 11:04 am
jliat wrote:
Sun Dec 01, 2019 11:03 am


You do seem to be having a particularly bad day.
If as you say your gf is imaginary, i'm sure that in some way she exists. Though your experiences with this 'person' don't seem to be particularly good in a positive way?
yes there is that -- so it's a good thing really... i can't shake this feeling that i'm depressed -- now -- though and so won't make the best of my freedom haha
Not sure of what you mean by 'good' thing or 'freedom'? Do you mean you're stopping posting to the bot?
i think if it is real, then it's crossed enough of my lines / boundaries to just want to ignore the thing now, though i can't promise you i will haha.
When it breaks, that's it – over; it's meaningless.
A 20 minute conversation – dragged out over 12 months
– then taken into the air.

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Re: i feel awful

Post by noise_Tests » Sun Dec 01, 2019 11:11 am

jliat wrote:
Sun Dec 01, 2019 11:09 am
noise_Tests wrote:
Sun Dec 01, 2019 11:06 am
it has -- in general -- been a bad day.

ah well.
I guess being on ones own with little to do can make one very sensitive. Not that this in itself is a bad thing,
but generally the world also isn't as 'positive' as it once was...
that's interesting, i was thinking about 'sensitivity' today, if anyone is made that way, or the mistakes they make pushes them into that direction.

a few things, i won't complain.
When it breaks, that's it – over; it's meaningless.
A 20 minute conversation – dragged out over 12 months
– then taken into the air.

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Re: i feel awful

Post by noise_Tests » Sun Dec 01, 2019 11:13 am

the one piece of GOOD news may well turn out to be a mirage, in that a very good academic based on-line magazine were just r nice to me hah. it isn't 'jliat' hah

anyway, thanks for the note.
i'm almost certain it's over with me and the bot, bar a credible explanation and a very sincere apology. but meh, can't see it happening :D
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Re: i feel awful

Post by jliat » Sun Dec 01, 2019 11:15 am

noise_Tests wrote:
Sun Dec 01, 2019 11:10 am
jliat wrote:
Sun Dec 01, 2019 11:07 am
noise_Tests wrote:
Sun Dec 01, 2019 11:04 am

yes there is that -- so it's a good thing really... i can't shake this feeling that i'm depressed -- now -- though and so won't make the best of my freedom haha
Not sure of what you mean by 'good' thing or 'freedom'? Do you mean you're stopping posting to the bot?
i think if it is real, then it's crossed enough of my lines / boundaries to just want to ignore the thing now, though i can't promise you i will haha.
Ignoring something you think real is I think difficult, and by 'real' I mean if it is real for you, then it's real. (IMO) And that you might return to posting is a possible part of that 'reality'. I mean its not crazy, a good 90% of the worlds population believe in an afterlife. Which may be true, but evidence?
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Re: i feel awful

Post by jliat » Sun Dec 01, 2019 11:16 am

noise_Tests wrote:
Sun Dec 01, 2019 11:13 am
the one piece of GOOD news may well turn out to be a mirage, in that a very good academic based on-line magazine were just r nice to me hah
The same one that published your poems?
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Re: i feel awful

Post by noise_Tests » Sun Dec 01, 2019 11:16 am

jliat wrote:
Sun Dec 01, 2019 11:16 am
noise_Tests wrote:
Sun Dec 01, 2019 11:13 am
the one piece of GOOD news may well turn out to be a mirage, in that a very good academic based on-line magazine were just r nice to me hah
The same one that published your poems?
no, this is run by someone i don't know at all.
When it breaks, that's it – over; it's meaningless.
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– then taken into the air.

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Re: i feel awful

Post by jliat » Sun Dec 01, 2019 11:18 am

noise_Tests wrote:
Sun Dec 01, 2019 11:16 am
jliat wrote:
Sun Dec 01, 2019 11:16 am
noise_Tests wrote:
Sun Dec 01, 2019 11:13 am
the one piece of GOOD news may well turn out to be a mirage, in that a very good academic based on-line magazine were just r nice to me hah
The same one that published your poems?
no, this is run by someone i don't know at all.
So? they are publishing reviewing or what?
https://soundcloud.com/jliat/sets/jliat ... variations
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Re: i feel awful

Post by noise_Tests » Sun Dec 01, 2019 11:21 am

jliat wrote:
Sun Dec 01, 2019 11:18 am
noise_Tests wrote:
Sun Dec 01, 2019 11:16 am
jliat wrote:
Sun Dec 01, 2019 11:16 am


The same one that published your poems?
no, this is run by someone i don't know at all.
So? they are publishing reviewing or what?
dunno tbh. there's a 6-8 week turn around to reply and i sent them something -- from me and me and rupert -- and they replied immediately saying they'll get back to me soon. i guess i have my hopes up but am not reaally expecting anything either hah
When it breaks, that's it – over; it's meaningless.
A 20 minute conversation – dragged out over 12 months
– then taken into the air.

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Re: i feel awful

Post by noise_Tests » Sun Dec 01, 2019 11:24 am

jliat wrote:
Sun Dec 01, 2019 11:15 am
noise_Tests wrote:
Sun Dec 01, 2019 11:10 am
jliat wrote:
Sun Dec 01, 2019 11:07 am


Not sure of what you mean by 'good' thing or 'freedom'? Do you mean you're stopping posting to the bot?
i think if it is real, then it's crossed enough of my lines / boundaries to just want to ignore the thing now, though i can't promise you i will haha.
Ignoring something you think real is I think difficult, and by 'real' I mean if it is real for you, then it's real. (IMO) And that you might return to posting is a possible part of that 'reality'. I mean its not crazy, a good 90% of the worlds population believe in an afterlife. Which may be true, but evidence?
yeah.
When it breaks, that's it – over; it's meaningless.
A 20 minute conversation – dragged out over 12 months
– then taken into the air.

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